With You Always

On the same day I submitted the previous post, I found myself surrounded but astoundingly alone. I was stranded on an island of depression and as much as I thought I had in common with those around me, they were powerless to reach me, since they were powerless to understand. The next morning while driving to work, I was playing through songs on my phone and came across this blessing that I hope to minister tomorrow. It was a timely blessing (and reminder) for me and I hope it is for you as well.

I Love Y'all
SLC 


With You Always

Lead Me From Me To You

I was making the mistake last night of having a conversation with myself. While that may not be bad all the time, last night it was. I was thinking about the lease on a building, my classes, the increased workload on my job, the roof, the oil change, Elijah’s graduation, my class reunion, and my desire to relocate to Georgia. SLC and I were talking about some of these things; primarily those that need to be taken care of this week. I told myself, “You can handle it. You’re just overwhelmed.” I immediately heard Psalm 61:2; the second part that says, “When my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”

Just between you and I, I’m a pretty smart guy. I am very resourceful. Need something fixed? I can do it, even if I have never done it before. I’m a man’s man. I don’t like taking about what’s broke, I like fixing it. This smartadicity (new word I just made up) is my biggest problem, and it was my biggest problem last night.

I mean if I am overwhelmed obviously all my intelligence and resourcefulness is not enough to get me the peace I need. Telling me I can handle it was a somewhat delusional statement when made without acknowledging my dependence on God. In fact I am now convinced God allows some crap to take place things not too work out as planned when my smart self plans without praying and acknowledging him.

So as I hear this familiar scripture again, for the first time, I think I understand it a little bit better.

It starts, “From the end of the earth I will cry to You”, meaning know matter where I go, or how high I get I will always acknowledge your role in getting me there and keeping me there.

Next it says, “When my heart is overwhelmed”. Heart actually means and includes mind, so as smart as I think I am, I will reach a point of mental futility equivalent to brain freeze, which can lead to mental and physical exhaustion.

Finally, “Lead me to the rock that is higher than I”. Jesus said to Simon, “thou art Peter”. Peter means small stone. Thou art ___________, a small stone. Then Jesus said, “Upon this Rock I will build my church.” This rock is not a small stone, but a Bedrock or a large foundational stone that you can build on.

So when my small stone of a mind has exhausted all of its resources, remind and lead me to the ultimate source of all peace; the foundation upon which my faith, hope and life is built.

Now I know what they meant when I was a child when they said, “You know Too Much”.

Thank God now I know Him.

See y’all real soon.

PRESS!

I love blogging, sharing, and the Word of God; in reverse order. But as anyone reading this can tell, the blogging aspect of my sharing has been woefully neglected. There’s a reason for that, but there are no excuses. I am married……with four kids……active in ministry…..trying to resurrect or pursue a more active role in music……and I am trying to complete a degree in information technology with a concentration in database administration. Oh yeah, I work for Pfizer Consumer Healthcare. These are what occupy major chunks of my 25 hour days. But still, I have know excuses.

When I started blogging with Perspective, it was a way to get a vent while doing something I enjoy, writing, and interacting with people beyond facebook shenanigans. Eventually I started this blog and somehow, whenever people went to my profile, Search Me Lord (SML) is what was listed first. I could blame that on blogger’s tendency to do the unexplainable, but I prefer to blame God.

While perspective is just that, my perspective on current events, Search Me Lord is GOD’s perspective often times of me and by extension others that can identify with some of what I may …… excuse me…. what God may be dealing with me about. This blog is an extension of a call on my life, not a habit. It is a part of who I am based on the will of God not me. When I think of all the things I know I should be doing, I think of Myles Munroe's trip past a cemetery. He was driving and God said, "most of them never became who I called them to be". Ouch!

So there should be a minimum of two relevant posts per month on SML. No junk postings, just so I can say I posted something. Posts like the one I never wrote for Easter titled “Don’t waste it. Celebrating the resurrection but living an un-resurrected life.” Or the post that I never wrote titled, “SHUT UP. Learning How to Argue From Jesus’ Example” (I choose to hear nothing, and I make no reply. For I am waiting for you, O LORD. You must answer for me, O Lord my God. Psalms 38:14-15). I have a blogger friend (not you) that really needs to stop validating haters with her constant rebuttals. (But Jesus held his peace Matthew 26:63a)

This is a calling I can no longer neglect, so it’s time for me to press through all of my (in)valid reasons for complacency. See y’all real soon.

SLC

I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:14